By Positively Positive
Asexuality + Aromantic poem
Most times I'm not gay enough,
queer enough because I don't date or love enough
Never had Love never wanted love
Never been in a relationship
People say I'm mars like a spaceship alien
because I never wanted love,
been in love
Got teased, harassed and groped
ridiculed like a joke
my high school, college, middle school friends
and family be all up in my business
trying to hook me up
with someone fly
asking me if I'm dating this guy
your questions are pervasive
gawking me,
teasing me as if being wanted for my body lust
Adored and mourned to desire consume me
no air left for me to breath in
Gasping for my air
reaching for my queer
I'm never fitting in with these romantic queers
They say to be human, straight, queer and gay
is to follow these seven rites of passage:
love, come out, have sex, get married, have kids,
engage, engage, engage
romance, romance, romance
people gossip chatter constantly on and on and on
and on and on and on about lovers, relationships, partners, hookups—-
they never ever pause the conversation to focus on their friend
Who is lonely and silent
content and complacent
These conversations are deadly
Where do people turn to
when no one is listening?
this world is built for romance
because people struggle hella hard
just to build community
reaching for my friends, reaching for community, reaching for my family
I'm constantly reaching; no one's there
I know people are busy
Why is it so hard to have a friendship
show up in this city?
I told my therapist what is one thing
I want my friendships to know.
I wanna feel,
feel a priority
Be a part of someone's day
say hey
I just want to just kick it,
watch movies or write poetry though a text message
Tell me about your day
These necessities feels it's granted only to the romance
because People struggle hella hard
just to build community
reaching for my friends, reaching for community, reaching for my family
I'm constantly reaching; no one's there
I know people are busy
Why is it so hard to have a friendship
show up in this city?
This phenomenon is sad
tossing people like salad
When I know platonic, intimate friendships,
Community organizing, healing cyphers
saved me
my life from misery
Gave me
my first true love
rhythm and poetry
My survival art mocked
When I tell people that I don't date
Or love enough
Never had Love
never wanted love
Never been in a relationship
People say I'm mars like a spaceship alien because I never wanted love, been in love
no air left for me to breath in
Gasping for my air
reaching for my queer
I'm never fitting in with these romantic queers
I don't date
I don't love
I'm still queer
I'm still ace when I'm grey and horny for gay sex
I'm still aro when I want a relationship
I'm still accountable
not to pimp an identity that isn't mine
Most times I'm not gay enough, queer enough
Because I don't date or love enough
Never had Love never wanted love
Never been in a relationship
People say I'm mars like a spaceship alien because I never wanted love, been in love